My Betta fish, Elvis (named after the Elvis Costello Elvis) died today. I’ve had a couple fishies through the years but Elvis was special. I ended up having him as a pet because someone mysteriously left him in my parent’s mailbox. No note, no nothing, just a fish in a little bowl with a plant sticking out of it. He has gotten sick a couple times, one time very bad but after a lot of fish-medicine he amazingly bounced back. I’m still in awe of how that happened. I want to cry because i’m thinking about what happened to me a year in a half ago, or what I refer to in my head as ‘The Brooklyn Incident.’ Elvis was there that day in that horrid kitchen when I could have lost my life. My little fishy buddy watching over me. I know he’s just a fish and there wouldn’t have been anything he could have done while I was lying there unconsious, but it was nice to have someone there. (there’s more to this story, i’m going to write about it in a zine methinks)
So after that incident and just 2 weeks of living in a new place I had no choice but to swallow my pride and move back to my parent’s house, and i’ve been there since. I’ve never felt more like a failure in my life. I was dead broke because I spent all my money on a place that was supposed to be home and I didn’t get any of my security deposit back or anything. Heartbroken because the “plan” I had since college didn’t work out. This is strange timing that Elvis died today because in just a day I am finally moving again. It would be an understatement to say I deserve this. Living at home has no doubt been the thing that has bothered & affected me the most. I’ve learned a shit ton since the last time I moved, most of all— to slow down. Stop obsessing over what’s to come and rushing life because you’re not there yet. I had this plan to move to a certain place because I thought if I was there i’d have everything figured out. I thought I would feel successful, I thought my head would be clear, I thought I would have an easier time making my art. I desperately needed my own space and I rushed to make it happen. Spoiler alert: you’ll never have everything figured out. Also, the key to success (or feeling successful personally) isn’t always what you think it is. This time around, my success and happiness ironically is a quirky house in the suburbs of long island. And I am okay with that.
Looking to trade zines with people in Tumblr-land!
This is my perzine containing stories about high school. It touches on depression, feminism, and privilege. Quarter sized, 30 pages.
Let me know :)
David Carson; Graphic Designer (via velvet-under-gr0und)
West Village, Manhattan. $1900.00
“Loft bed setup with workstation”
Reminds me of freshman year of college…but with less space hah
Why is Pepper Ann such a great show? Well, let’s start off with the main character. She’s pizza-eating, tv-watching, comic book-reading, hard rock-loving kind of girl who loves to rollerblade. She’s great at soccer, average in school and worries a lot about being cool. What’s interesting about Pepper Ann is that she’s definitely the most aggressive character in the show, and is never penalized for that. Her lack of feminine passivity is always shown to be a good thing. In fact, the entire show is full of strong-willed females who respect and accept themselves for who they are. Like her single, feminist mom, Lydia Pearson, who supports her family and encourages her daughters to be independent and to believe in themselves. Her younger sister, Moose, looks and sounds like a boy, yet this is never commented on in the show. Moose just is who she is, and nobody cares that she doesn’t fit in to the typical female role. One of Pepper Ann’s best friends, Milo, is a sensitive artist and in one episode he comes to the conclusion that there is no typical way to be a guy. The main females characters of the show rarely worry about their physical appearance and Pepper Ann often learns that traits like honesty and integrity are more important than being cool. When it comes down to it, this show is amazing because it sends the right message about all genders. The show is centered on strong female characters, and portrays a world where gender really doesn’t matter.
They now have Seasons 1-5 of Pepper Ann Streaming online
But essentially, this is a Moose appreciation post.
yes. yes. yes.